Saturday, February 20, 2016

The Exponential Regression of Progress; Why I Can't Run or Tie my Shoes.

“Life is not an easy matter... You cannot live through it without falling into frustration and cynicism unless you have before you a great idea which raises you above personal misery, above weakness, above all kinds of perfidy and baseness.”
~ Leon Trotsky ~

The Exponential Regression of Progress; Why I Can't Run or Tie my Shoes.

For the past five or so years I have been losing flexibility and range of motion in my hips. For a long time I had myself convinced that it was tight hip flexors. Recently the pain and discomfort combined with no longer being able to tie my shoes or cut my toe nails led me to getting x-rays. This confirmed that I have arthritis in both hips, which in turn brought me to see a hip specialist.

Further x-rays revealed that the arthritis is combined with multiple bone spurs and my fear of having surgery is going to become a reality. On top of that I may not be able to run again for a long time, if ever again.  I have a long road ahead of me and a lot of decisions to make.

Whether or not I get to run remains to be seen, but I will not be able to train for anything serious. My best race is going to remain a last place finish in a 25K with no chance at a marathon or 50K distance. Ironically, I renewed to become a lifetime member of the Trail Nerds just before I had to stop running. My hope now is that my wife, daughter and I can volunteer and team up for some course sweep duties in the future to stay involved.

I can deal with the pain and loss of range of motion, try cortisone shots, or have surgery. Because of my work schedule I may need to wait until after the first of the year to have surgery. It looks like the surgery will be a resurfacing of the hip joint. If that is not possible, he will have to do a total hip replacement. Three months later doing it all over on the other side.

Right now I am trying to digest all of this and see which direction I will go. On thing that I don't want to here are comments that begin with "At least..."  I have to drop weight, get mentally prepared, and using low impact exercise and weight training, get into the best shape I can. They have the technology, they can rebuild me, but I won't be the six million dollar man.

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