“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard
battle.”
~Philo~
Do You Know; What it is like
to know that if you see tomorrow it is because of others and not because you
want to? What it is like to be scared of your youngest child growing up and
taking away your “responsible” reason for being here? What it is like to want
to do better but, not sustaining that feeling long enough to do anything? What
it is like to wait to feel like someone gives a fuck and not being sure they
do? What it is like to alienate people that you want to be close to you so they
distance themselves from you? What it is like to have your soul and heart feel
empty?
I hope that you were able to
answer NO to all or most of these questions. If not, know that these questions
are valid and you feel them but, they are not who you are. They are thrown at
you by loneliness and depression. You must not let them overtake you. You must take
those brief moments that you have or feel some control and do something every
time. No matter how small, do it. Put enough in your emotional bank to say Fuck you to these questions and useless feelings.
If you tell Alexa to "play
music I like" and most of what plays are angry or sad songs, work in a few
others. Find someone who makes you feel heard and seen and spend time with
them. Avoid people who suck your energy, God knows we don’t have extra to
spare. Catch yourself before pushing people away. Stand up tall and find a
reason to stick around.
Look after your strong
friends who most people think have their shit together and are doing fine.
This life is hard and we are all in this together. We are not meant to go
through this shit alone. I wish you peace my friend and that you for hanging
here for a few minutes.
