Year-end Random Reflections and Ponderings
Here it is, New Year’s Eve
2019. Another year has come and gone and has not forgotten to kick my ass on the
way through. I know I am not the only one and there were a couple of good
things that happened but, for the most part, I am over it. I am oh so tired of
waiting for the elusive “better year coming”.
As I sit here alone on New
Year’s Eve (same as Thanksgiving and Christmas Eve) downloading divorce
paperwork, I think to myself, self, WTF! Why did I allow myself to be in this
position? I got divorced and said “never again” yet here I am. How did I let
this happen? I am scrapping my shining armor and putting my white horse out to
pasture.
This time of year brings many
questions to mind. What is it about me that makes people stop loving me? What happens
when a person dies and they are from a different belief system, do they go to their
afterlife and you go to yours (if there is such a thing)? Do you never see them
again? Why is our life set up to let us F-up so many times before we start to
figure things out? Why are so many things in our society fixable but most
people ignore the truth? I could go on but what’s the point.
I don’t mean to sound dark
and gloomy but it is what I feel right now. One promise I made when I started
this blog was, to be honest. I have done my best to stick to that promise
throughout my writing. Many people want sugarcoated crap but if that is you,
you came to the wrong place.
I do wish you happiness and
peace and maybe someday, I will understand those feelings as well. If you have
a chance to make the coming year better, please go for it. If someone needs
help, do your best to help them. Every little bit of kindness makes the world a
better place to live.
Peace Out!
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