12 Sessions and 28 Days AF

 12 Sessions and 28 Days AF

"Hope is important because it can make the present moment less difficult to bear. If we believe that tomorrow will be better, we can bear a hardship today."

~ Thich Nhat Hanh ~

Today is my final three hour IOP session and the successful completion of my self-imposed 28-day break from alcohol. It was a crutch to shut my brain down that I had to do without during this phase. There were times of pretty intense anxiety, mostly because I knew I was going to have to be alone with my thoughts without my usual neuroreceptor numbing agent. 

This month has been a bumpy ride but at least (I feel) it is starting to go in the right direction.  I even trimmed the whiskers and got a haircut. I have been taking advantage of the craziness of this year and depression as an excuse to get shaggy looking. I decided it was time to look and feel like me again. 

I have met some really good people this past month, most of which I would never have met if I had not gone into this program. I am grateful for each and every one of them and will miss seeing them. I hope they all find the peace they deserve and continue to seek out hope.   

It is not any one thing or person who helped me keep my head above water, it was a combination of people that stuck with me and convinced me to take action. Without movement or action we are stuck and that is where I have been for a very long time. Yes, some people faded into the shadows when I was at my worst, but the people that mattered would not let me quit on myself. 

Please never give up and never let go of hope. Your work here is not done yet and whether you know it or not, someone needs you. Thank you for taking the time to read this and PEACE!