“Hope is important because it can make the
present moment less difficult to bear. If we believe that tomorrow will be
better, we can bear a hardship today.”
~ Thich Nhat Hanh ~
Without Hope, Little is Possible and Everything is Difficult
For the last two plus years’ hope has been slipping away from me while pain and depression ruled every waking hour. As I sit here now, almost 48 hours after surgery I am in pain, but it is a different kind of pain. One that eventually will go away and lead to healing. The weeks to come will not be easy; as a matter of fact, I will need to work my ass off and once I am healed I will begin preparing for the second operation three months from now.
The biggest difference is I finally feel some hope returning
to my world. It was increasingly discouraging and frustrating to lose almost
all range of motion in my hips and legs, to struggle taking my dog for a walk
or play with my daughter. I know recovery is not going to be easy but really,
what is easy that is worth a damn?
This operation was a huge unknown for me and it was
frightening thinking that someone was going to cut into me. I did some research
with the help of my wife and found the best hip surgeon in this region. He did
his job and now I have to do mine, which is recover and prepare for the next
one. At least I don’t think I will be so anxious about the next since I have
something to compare it to now.
Well, this was a short post but I will be home for a few
weeks and I plan to right more while I am recovering. As always, thanks for
your time. Talk at you soon. I guess I’ll post this after I get home, I can’t
get the internet to work.

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